Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Work it mama!

It was good to see my mom out breaking a sweat tonight. She really does go hard when she's doing something. She almost passed out!

A healthy body pays dividends in all aspects of life. I'm buying spiritual, mental, and physical health because they are all intertwined. At some point my father will get in the game and lose that beach ball that leads him every where he's going! I refuse to go out like that... so if you see me and I'm chubby remind me!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

I'm on the road

Random artistic outbursts occur from time to time. I was on my way to Indianapolis to work out and these two came to mind. I often wonder how they sound to others, but I'd rather not be disappointed.

I'll admit that I'm one of those brothers
I like to have my cake and eat it to.
I prefer to hear "I'm in love with" along with the "I love you"
At some point I developed a self consciousness
We all wear the mask
Someday the world will know my passion
Never having to ask

Cold in December

When it's cold in December I persevere
I'm Ford tough, built to last
In crunch time I'm the go to man
I thrive in the sunshine
Grind in the snow
I bring life to any situation
I'm similar to a seasoned dandelion
It's not dead, go ahead blow
A start reality most men fear
But me when it's cold in December I persevere

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

This was love

So shady it seems this life we lead
Why must it be necessary for me to depend on and need?
For a love without bounds is the only solace place.
A utopian entity too often never replaced
We look long and try hard to find
Still life’s truths remain constant
This love is a one shot deal, had it and lost it.

You being that all inclusive being on this earth
Loving, beautiful, intelligent,
Words do you no justice
My rock in this shaky environment,Where all I am is that not yet which I want to be
Your words challenge, your opinion motivates me
This man will never stop until he is the best he can be
Not in jest, but surely one day Ill be more than a B
Minus the memory of a turbulent past is never so likely
However, holdfast the thought of waking up next to you
Holding you at night, drying your tears, laughing when you want to
It’s all good in truth and spirit
I started writing this day because you said you wanted to hear it.
My words sometimes, are less than precise
I may be perceived to be angry, mean, and to make it rhyme less than
Still I do believe that you know who I am, and better yet what I am
working to be
My only hope is that one day you realize that it’s all you need
It’s hard to admit it but we all need someone
Don’t go independent woman on me and say it ain’t so
If just to bitch, whine, or complain
Life is bliss when you are more acquainted than just by name

So let it be known I was happy we met and greatful for the time we spent.
I'd never take back anything nice I said, each word I meant.
Though we part ways and I know you must go.
Remember this was love.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

I need a six pack...

So I'm focused on this body. At the very least a physical appeal to myself will serve as some consolation for the uncertainty that clouds my mind. The pain can be a release and the results will surely serve it's purpose as time permits. I'm focused man...

Monday, February 06, 2006

Getting old

Relatively speaking how old is 23? Ultimately we have no way of knowing how long we will live. I guess that's why I have had this feeling in the back of my mind for what seems forever. I am genuinely terrified of the change that is to come, of growing older. I guess my problem is that I never really felt like I was a kid. I made mistakes but never really lived the carefree lifestyle that it seems so many have experienced. Is it too late? Is that what I need to do before I can feel more comfortable with going on with my life? When will I stop analyzing everything so much?

I wish to just BE but as THEY SAY it's a HARD KNOCK LIFE and though I'm GOING THROUGH ALOT in this UNPREDICTABLE time I know that if I had ONE WISH I'd conquer this FEAR OF FLYING, KEEP ON PUSHING, and LIVE THE LIFE like it's GOLDEN (NO HOMO)