Umm...

If it all ended soon would that be ok? Would you feel comfortable with all that you accomplished? Would the idea of never waking up again be acceptable? Did you spend ever day in pursuit of dreams and aspirations? Did you focus on the wrong things and fail to use your time wisely. Did you waste it? Did you waste this life because you valued the wrong things? Did you find yourself saying “I wish I had known then what I do now?” Maybe it’s not too late, but you better act fast. Most would say that time stands still for no man, why would you dare to test the notion?

I want more of myself then I am capable of achieving, such that as long as I keep working toward my goal I’ll be a little better off tomorrow then I was today.

Yikes..

I probably should never be this irritated by someone, but I can't seem to help it. I guess this is why it takes time to make up our minds about people. This time though, I'm more then reasonably certain that this is not for me. There has to be more to a companion then what I currently have. I really don't have an interest in spending an extended amount of my time on the phone. I have bigger things to attend to then meaningless conversation.

I want to be needed but I also need you to be a showstopper. Maybe it's about that time to say goodbye. I try to save that term "bye" for when it's a permanent thing and to associate that phrase with this situation is not a stretch.

Was I ever able to have conversation about something important to me? Or maybe I was in some trance caught up in trying to get behind that? I seriously have to find what I once had... or make moves. It's draining me. I want to be able to give my all to someone. I'm really not interested in playing around with anyone at this point. Nobody deserves that. Right?